Well its comming back again........ My little friend depression. Makes me feel like a little child terrifed by the bumps in the night. Makes me desire to feel pain so I know I am alive. I feel absolutely useless. And I swear "he" is trying to make me fat so "he" has a reason to leave me. I am already fat, what reason, and why would "he" want to do this to me?

Hey----- Yeah I am back I guess there's just nothing to talk about or I am just so damn forgetful that I have something to say and then I just like zone it I dunno It's been a little over a year since my 2 month old so died--- I am doing better now--- Mostly because he told me he plans to come back as my lesbian daughter (men go figure) Also I have met 5 of my 6 children, and one of them was a former Royal!!! The crappy thing is 3 of my children have a connection they didn't even kno...

I FUCKING HATE BANKS!!!!! They are just so fucked up!!!!!!!! Yes I am pissed and will use lots and lots of profanity in this posting because well a bank-WASHINGTON MUTUAL in spesific- has decided that just because the repo rate is up this month they will take unsuspecting and easy target customers and STEAL from them!!!!!! I deposit a $75 check on the 22nd and today I go in to deposit a $10 check and when I get my statement from the teller I see a -$65 ballance!!!!!!! Apperantly the dr...

Well it sorta looks like things in my business are looking up. I found some realy good wholesalers to use and I keep checking the bargain bins at like Freds and other fine stores. I am also selling cards for my fiances boss and he has some damn expendy ones too! hopefully all this hard work will get us the $$$ we need to take aour vaction this year. We realy want to go to a waterpark in Spokane that looks way sweet and then down to Boise to visit his family and go to Roaring Sprin...

Ever wonder why you are on this planet? Of all the possible choices when you were asked "WHich planet would you like?" ever wonder WHY you picked this filthy piss hole? I don't realy have that luxury as I was brought to this rock and I often wonder why this rock was picked of all the other planets out there. I am quite sure there was a better choice, or maybe I was just susposed to suffer miserably while life that was better went on around me. I suppose I had it good. My twin brother spen...

Ever wonder what your purpose in this life is?If you don't then kudos to you, because everyday, and every moment of everyday I wonder. Oh, I used to feel that I had purpose, last year for 2 months(before my infant son passed away in my arms), and in early 2001, in the days before 9-11(thriving net business, money to help other people).I only deserve what other people seem to have; love,a family, a home and all that bs. I know those things have to be worked for and I think I may have the love p...

I saw something very disturbing today. As we shopped in Wallysworld we saw a small girl around 4 or 5 already being trained by her parents to be a vessil of hate. She was walking around like a little Nazi soldier and doing the heil. I was very upset by this ,as if parents wish to indoctrinate their children into hate orginizations then they make their children outcasts unto scocirty and one of those I am sworn to protect the innocent against. Some things, like blatant hate, SHOULD be kept in...

Hello all I have returned I lost mt Staticjedi site when i moved and chainged web servers So if you want more info on me its all on the Staticjedi name and now we will contine where we left off.............. Stirring thought of the moment OK ANY hairstyle named after a fish can only lead to bad things for ANY ONE who sings and sports said hairstyle in said video I shall mention no names here to protect the (ahem) innocent And now for an update I no longer live in the sticks I a...